David Cornwell

When I realized I needed to seek some help so I could raise my three children appropriately, I sought therapy. My therapist was wonderful and helped me so much.  I can’t even begin to explain what a positive direction this provided me.  I spent several years learning to recognize destructive behavior patterns and then, figuring out how to replace them with more healthy ones.  Needless to say, it was a difficult time for me and my children.  However, I am so much happier today, and I continue to grow everyday.

Now, back to the meditation.  In the last 2-3 years, I have been haphazardly learning about and practicing some yoga and meditation.  Since I began my commitment to meditate everyday for at least 31 days, I’ve been hoping to receive more joy, peace and love in my own life since each day has been a struggle.  I was getting a little frustrated until one day last week.

Let me describe my meditation for that particular day.  I was sitting in my usual place, but having a very hard time sitting still.  I kept moving and fidgeting until I finally heard myself say out loud,”Sit Still!”.  To be honest, I was a little shocked and stunned at the outburst.  Then, I heard this little small voice (no, not audible) in my head (I think of it as my Higher Power’s direction.).  The thought that was brought to me was this, “Ask your inner child what she wants today.”  So I did ask my inner child, that damaged and still growing little girl, “What do you want to do today?”.  I immediately began to cry, and I saw all these ugly words that were attached to my childhood abuse.  I heard that still, small voice again, “I’m not able to give love, peace or joy until you surrender the horrendous words”.

At that exact moment, I began naming all the words I could that were associated with my abuse.  I surrendered them to my Higher Power and then, asked to have love, joy, peace and all other good things take their place.   It happened almost immediately that my mood went from a negative, anxiousness to a positive and peaceful calm.  It has been there ever since, and I know if I lose the peace, I can just look inside to see what has shoved it into a corner.  I can then give up that and bring the peace back.

In my next post, I hope to have a recording to share with you about how I practice my meditation so you can get some idea of how to develop your own practice.

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Till next time, may Light make your path clear, may Wisdom be your guide and may Love lead you in this journey called “Life”.

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