Meditation On Christ

I want to write about my experience and review the Soul Compass course created by while it remains fresh in my mind, and my spirit renewed.

Let me first begin by stating that the stars must have been aligned when I found Debbie in Bangkok, Thailand while searching for a reiki teacher to help take it to the next level. Immediately our energies ‘clicked’, and it wasn’t long being in her presence and company that I knew everything she teaches is legitimate, and where it comes from is all Spirit and heart.

As weird as it might sound to most, this incredible lady and I have ties beyond this lifetime, and the sisterly/friend/nurturer/teacher bond we have is incredibly special.

That said, I wasn’t really sure what to expect when I signed up for the Soul Compass course. I know that it took Debbie almost one year (with 7 re-writes and plenty of help from her editor friend, Chris) through her own ups and downs (who didn’t have trouble in 2014?) to polish off Part 1 of the course (which I just completed), but I didn’t recognize how special it truly is.

To simply explain: the Soul Compass course is a series of 10 meditations where you and your higher self journey to meet 10 different archetypes in a magical land (designed by Debbie and one of her students) with figures from the Tarot card deck (an incredibly unique, powerful, and often misunderstood divining tool). Archetypes include figures like The Hermit, The Fool, The High Priestess, the Emperor, The Chariot… etc… (I’ll get more into them below)

However it’s not just a meditation. These characters actually come alive, and whether it’s Debbie’s voice or how blessed she is by Spirit, it seems everyone gets into a very deep state of meditation and is able to learn from the figures, unlocking suppressed, hidden, or forgotten memories/traumatic experiences which have shaped their perception(s) and have been holding them back in this life.

If you know about me and my work, you understand how important I feel this is. I definitely believe that emotions and suppressed feelings are the ROOT cause of most illness. I understand how important diet, nutrition, exercise, and lifestyle changes are for those seeking to heal and live balanced, but unless they can be HONEST with themselves, open up and allow Spirit to work with them, and RECEIVE the guidance they have been seeking (but up to this point have been too scared to receive or look at), they will either keep attracting the same situations into their life, or continue to suffer from diseases of affluence.

But this cycle DOESN’T need to continue. We are living in a new age where anything is possible, and one of the most seemingly impossible is to truly heal. This can be accomplished fully, I believe, by letting go of past experiences which have hurt us, feeling the trauma, working with Spirit, our guides, and angels to allow it to be released, and inviting in a feeling of love we have pinched ourselves off from for many years. (Thousands, to be accurate)

In this setting, this is where the ‘miraculous’ happens… And Debbie’s Soul Compass course is perfect for it. I do believe that one might experience similar through reiki, spiritual psychological counseling, and plant medicinals, but NOT to this extent.

This is YOU and your higher self going to the main archetypes in your life and LEARNING, RECEIVING, and EXPLORING in a safe environment those truths you already KNOW (and do not need to receive from an outside source) – and not in a hallucinogenic state. It’s pure truth, and you are receiving it from Spirit directly.

You are also given follow up meditations to do, and from what I hear, that is where the real transformation takes place.

So you can see how passionate I am about Debbie and this course. Let’s get into a little bit about my experience.

How it helped me heal:

Whether it was Mercury Retrograde or my own subconscious prepping me to acknowledge my imbalances and prep to let them go, the week – two weeks before I did this course, I kind of felt like a mess. I, for so long, have been seeking the answer of how we can truly heal these emotional and energetic traumas in the body from past experiences in this life, and even karmic ties in others.

(I’ll let you decide your opinion on lives, etc… But I personally have experienced too much and read many journals of regression hypnotherapy to confirm what I have always suspected: that we do re-incarnate, and are living out a form of karma in this life to ‘balance’ our experiences and grow)

I was meditating every day. I was doing lots of yoga, drinking tons of tea, eating bucket-loads of spirulina, and still felt stuck.

The term ‘spiritual psychology’ was coming up so much, and I just couldn’t understand how it all fit together.

To put it simply, the Soul Compass course opened and unlocked so many ‘doors’ I thought didn’t exist… but oh boy they do. For quick summary, I will summarize the two days with the main archetypes that helped open up the floodgates (I have for a long time suppressed my tears – no more!) and propel healing:

The Fool

In the tarot deck, the fool is a sign of ‘new beginnings’ and is a sign it it time to find courage to ‘leap off the cliff’, trusting Source to provide new direction and provide our needs. The figure is usually see with a knapsack and a trustful guardian (usually a dog) guiding him/her along.

In this meditation, I was able to see this giant, huge bag weighing me down on my journey. At one point, we are told to dump out everything we didn’t need. I kept seeing baby shoes, teddy bears, and a whole lot of childhood stuff. To me this meant nothing. I don’t remember a lot of my childhood (or to be more accurate, have suppressed quite a bit). But Debbie’s guides (which work through her quite well) immediately noted that there was a lot of angst about my childhood and feeling like an innocence was lost.

That caused me to break down, for to recognize something truthful like this directly speaks to the soul. In effect, some form of floodgate will open (which is essential, that is why we shouldn’t suppress crying – ever… Something I still need to learn) Much more happened, but it was an awakening realization for what was to come.

The Magician

The magician has always been one of my favorite cards. Holding a wand in his hand, sending out intention to the universe, the magician tells us that we have all the tools we need to manifest and create whatever we desire in our lives (the cup of emotion, the sword of mental reason, the wand of spiritual power, and the pentacle – symbolizing earthly desires and goods). However, most of us spend a lot of time throwing ideas (pictured as balls in the traditional deck) around and never acting on our ability to create.

For this reason, I was looking forward to seeing the magician. He appeared Merlin-like to me, and this meditation was incredibly trippy as I ascended a few different levels of consciousness at the same time. Connecting with other beings in my life simultaneously while doing this meditation,.

What was most profound (for me – everyone gets something different…and every time they do the meditation) was that the ‘gift’ that the magician provided me with: a glowing, healing ball into my stomach, which appeared to be gigantically pregnant.

It’s important to note that I did not want kids. (Still kind of don’t, but I’m working through that and the reasons behind it. You’ll find out why in ‘The Empress’.)

In this meditation I also connected with the essence of my twin flame and really worked on manifesting some different ventures to come.

The Hierophant

The Hierophant was an incredibly emotional, explosive, and opening meditation for me. I did this the second day and immediately felt a little frustrated (a sign something in my subconscious/ego is in dissonance with Source) upon entering the meditation.

It was beautiful, however. You walk through a tiny door in a wooden tree (like in Alice and Wonderland) and descend these beautiful steps to enter a tunnel and a clearing filled with tons of woodland creatures. It never was mentioned in the meditation, but tons of elemental creatures always flooded into my vision. Especially gnomes. Not sure what tie I have with gnomes. Lol.

Anyways, the frustration (being completely ‘IN’ the meditation at this point) was palpable, and I wanted to stay in the clearing, not venture to see the Hierophant (which is like a very spiritual non-denominational spiritual ‘father’ – like a pope, Zen monk, or whatever appears to you ) for reasons that would soon make themselves clear.

Upon entering the courtyard, we were brought to meet the ‘White Brotherhood’, which if you don’t know, is a group of ascended masters and high-level beings (like Buddha, Jesus, Krishna, etc… ) who work with light-workers to help clear negative energy and heal the world.

At this point tears started flooding down my cheeks. They were so bright, I felt I couldn’t look at them. Same with the Hierophant, which appeared like the pope (not the pope, but a pope I felt connected to and very much in-like with). I felt so… insignificant and unworthy to be there.

It clawed at my heart and caused more tears to pour. At one point I really felt archangels Gabriel and Michael (and my guides) pretty much pull me out of my body and really do a good clearing/working with me to release and let go.

Let me just say it now. You may doubt you have angels, guides, or there is even a Source consciousness, but they work with you all the time whether you acknowledge them or not… and there is just SO MUCH LOVE. So much I can’t even explain. They love you so much, and want to assist you in all areas of your life… and it was just a very profound and humbling experience.

I was able to get out of my head to be able to just feel my unworthiness (not entirely comfortable, mind you), but also restore a sense of hope and light as the angels worked with me to clear that pit of dark, gruesome energy in the depth of my heart chakra.

So what I needed to receive in answer to my experience and misgivings about myself were perfect. I felt raw and opened, but at least beginning to fill with the light of hope and optimism.

Coming back and reflecting on that unearthed even more emotions – where I feel a lot of the work will continue to be done.

The Emperor & The Empress

These are actually two different archetypes (and two different meditations), but because I feel I am rambling a bit on actually describing my experience, I wanted to group them together because their messages and experiences had similar realizations, and in effect, answers and insight to help me heal.

I think everyone has some sort of trauma from their past. As children, we hold our parents up on pedestals and expect them to be ‘perfect’. When they are not – because that would be impossible – we feel abused, abandoned, un-loved, etc.. and carry these experiences energetically in our bodies and etherical auras.

It can be so painful we block out such experiences (*raising my hand*), and because we don’t give that child a voice (the child that very much lives within us at all times), we continue to feel that frustration and hurt and shape our perception of the world based on that experience.

THAT IS WHY inner child clearing is so beneficial and needed. We are limiting and holding ourselves back based on our past, when we can TRULY free ourselves from experiences by 1) recognizing our parents are on their soul journey 2) acknowledging we, for some reason, CHOSE to incarnate as their children to learn valuable lessons and 3) understand that WE create our reality, and are the only ones hurting ourselves. Not them.

These truths came up in both the Empress and Emperor meditation(s) for me. I recognized there was a lot of hurt, resentment, and close-heartedness for ways I was treated as a child. (*Note: I love my parents and am on great terms with them, but this does need to be acknowledged for others seeking to heal)

Because my parents – like many of yours who grew up with parents from difficult times – did not receive the love they deserved, they unfortunately took out their archetypal weaknesses and sadness out on us. It’s been a cycle for years  – their parents doing the same.

At a very young age, I learned to put up a façade, a front if you will, to appear one way to others even though I was suffering underneath. (Debbie calls this my ‘hologram’) I realized during the Empress meditation (all to do with the maternal side and being nurtured) that it was at a young age I decided I didn’t’ want to ever have kids because I didn’t want to treat them the same way (feeling a bit abandoned myself). I allowed THIS (my choice – not anyone else’s) to form a welt in my lower tummy, my 2nd chakra to do with relationships. This huge wound is where the magician put the golden orb of healing light, and it is HERE I have felt most of my physiological issues stem from…and now I know why.

It’s also the reason I have pushed so many people away in relationships – whether romantic, family, or with friends.

Working with Debbie, I learned to forgive, to see how my parents need love, understanding, and respect – and just as much healing for them to restore their inner child to a place of happiness – and was able to let go of that hurt in my lower abdomen area.

So much more happened, but 90% of all I ‘couldn’t remember’ and felt very frustrated about while meditating for weeks, just hoping to remember, surfaced through this course. I now feel I have the TOOLS to continue to heal, but most importantly, help others heal.

Other Archetypes NOT Covered Here:

The High Priestess

Lady Justice

The Chariot

The Hermit

The Lovers

Here’s the thing:

If anyone ever does something to you, you are 1) choosing to react, rather than see what it is if you immediately feel the victim, 2) are ignoring the soul journey and why you either a) attracted that into your life or b) chose to be a part of the experience, and 3) ignoring that they, too, are an extension of Source (and you), and need LOVE, as that is the component which is missing and causing a hurt in them.

We can no longer demonize others and play the ‘victim’ if we seek to get to the ROOT cause of why people do things they do (it can’t all be accounted for by science)… We must have love, compassion, understanding, and resilience to see the mirrored reflection in ourselves in others. This isn’t to say ‘don’t have boundaries’ and ‘don’t honor yourself’. Do. You’re incredible, and the world is a better place because you exist.

But know that TRUE, lasting, healing is possible if you go within and learn that you have all the answers. Any obstacle you face is only that, a hurdle in a journey of a million miles.

This existence, this minute life span of a human is NOTHING in the glimpse of eternity. It may seem tough, but you CAN find the light at the end of the tunnel, and you CAN let go to heal. Spirit is here, and with the working of a wonderful psychological counselor like Debbie, her amazing (and channeled, by the way) Soul Compass course with beautiful imagery and description, and above all, help and assistance from above, EVERYTHING is possible.

In Conclusion:

I see this course going global someday. Debbie doesn’t have the marketing assistance she needs, nor the online presence she deserves, but it will someday be fulfilled. I can see it helping so many people, and feel honored I was given the opportunity by Spirit and Debbie to partake in the course.